My last realisation is that when you're tantric teacher, therapist, masseur, healer or/ and practitioner you would usually attract in your relationship the person, who needs healing or/and would like to be a student. 
They may love you truly, they may be thankful for your gifts till the end of their life, but not necessarily they would love you as a human being. 

Projection as a teacher, healer, saviour in nowadays conditionings, very often excludes accepting someone 's humanness, shadows and their dark sides. 

Expectations are leading to disappointments and frustrations. As the person who is the receiver is healing growing fast, she (or he) is wanting with the same speed change another person (healer). This is not always possible because healer already healed his core wounds. There still some small healings may happen, but those are just small steps comparing the tremendous healings and liberations, what needs to arrive at the beginning of our tantric path (receiver situation).
This dynamic create's sometimes too much complains what may ruin the relation. 

Also, when the person is healed from the core wounds or the student becomes a teacher, they become a new person, and they may not need a teacher or healer anymore. Their gratitude may be endless, but their love may become more limited. 

That's why, with this awareness, I wish to step out of those dynamics. 

From the next relationship consciously, I would open myself for another tantra teacher with their healed core wounds. Then we may relate more as equal. 

Then I could be loved for that I'm and not mainly for being a teacher or healer. I'm more than this, and I'm just human being as well ;) <3 

Nice song in gratitude to the teacher who was the lover before
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVavpK_4kh0&list=PL8M5t5cY3plZoGofNHNi-kElxmRvmMvau&index=50&t=0s  

11.05.2020 Koh Phangan, Thailand
Michal Kali Griks
http://tantramovement.com